Aggrivated, And Frustrated

Basically, in this post I just wanna get some things off my chest cause its been bothering me.
1.As you know, last February I started an online class to try and get my dietary managers certification.
Well, I had a REALLY, REALLY hard time in school and to think that it would be any better taking these classes was really stupid of me. I have such a hard time comprehending everything in the text book and when it comes to doing my assignments online its hard on me cause I don't understand the questions half the time.I don't want to ask Sarah to help me cause she usually has her hands full with Elah.
We paid quite a bit for me to take these classes, and I am afraid all that money is gonna go to waste. That's a LOT of pressure on me. AND I found out that even if I pass this coarse I have to pay 350 bucks to take the test that determines if I get my certification or not. So that has me worried that all that money will go to waste as well.

2. I love being the soul provider for my family, and I love the fact that Sarah wants to home school Elah and our other future children because I know what I went through in school with people picking on me, and I don't want to give anyone the chance to do that to Elah,  also if we home school her it could be in a Christ centered environment unlike it is in public schools. BUT, being the one provider puts more stress, and worry on me. Just knowing that if i mess up one time by calling into work cause I'm sick or having my hours cut for some reason, could possible keep us from paying our bills. Unlike having two people working  if one misses work, its still ok, cause your have another income coming in. Don't get me wrong we are fine paying bills with me just working my main job. But because I worry so much I ended up getting a second job.
I know that I should give God all my worries and everything, but that's a lot easier said than done. I know that having all this on my mind and all the stress is not good for me, but I don't what could make it better.
I'm at my whits end.....

Wow, What A Month

So there's a lot of stuff going on in my life right now, and its good stuff so don't worry. Elah will be five months old this coming Saturday and I am still trying to believe it. I know I say this in just about every post I make about her turning another month old, but I'm gonna say it again. It still feels like we just brought her home from the hospital. And when I think that in just a little over a month she will be half a year old, I'm like wow! Where has the time gone?
She is doing so much now. When you hold her she likes to touch your face, and rub your cheeks. But on the negative side of that she likes to grab my Dad, Brother, and my goatee, and trust me, when she gets ahold of it, it REALLY HURTS. But you can't help but laugh at her.
I also started my new work schedule, and I love it. I love being able to spend more time at home with Sarah and Elah. And I also started my second job which is pretty easy.
Every year when it starts to get warm, I like to start walking and hiking. So here lately me and Sarah have been walking around town, and in Montreat. I haven't hiked up to look out this year yet, but I sure am looking forward to it. I would love to start long distance walking and I have been thinking about starting a new blog to put my walks and hikes in. Now whether or not I will keep up with it, I don't know.
That's really about all that's going on right now, and I gotta say, life is good.

Has It Really Been A Year?

Well, I meant to post this on the 2nd of this month, but I kinda got side tracked. It was a year ago on may 2nd that I found out I was gonna be a daddy. Has it really been a year already? Its hard to believe isn't it?

As I look back to the day Sarah told me she was pregnant I can't seem to remember why I was so worried. Over the last four months I have had people ask me," Is it what you thought it would be?" And yes it has been everything I thought it would be and more. It has been one heck of an adventure, and its only beginning. The past year has been pretty crazy. I remember all the dr. visits, the baby shower, getting the nursery ready, the stupid child birth classes and the crazy perky lady, and then the grand fanally being the birth of my little girl.

Stressed But Blessed

Here lately I have been kinda stressed out. I still getting used to the changes at work though they are nothing major, I'm starting a second job for the summer though I AM NOT killing myself like I did last summer, my CDM class is kicking my butt, and I'm trying to help Sarah with Elah as much as I can.  On a brighter note, Elah is now four months old, no I'm not kidding. She is growing up so fast. She is starting to grab things now, and she loves to cuddle with her favorite stuffed animal Penny the pinguin.

I may be stressed, but I am blessed more than I deserve to be. I mean I have a great wife, a beautiful baby girl, a good job, a roof over my head, and food in the fridge. I AM BLESSED!