Basically, in this post I just wanna get some things off my chest cause its been bothering me.
1.As you know, last February I started an online class to try and get my dietary managers certification.
Well, I had a REALLY, REALLY hard time in school and to think that it would be any better taking these classes was really stupid of me. I have such a hard time comprehending everything in the text book and when it comes to doing my assignments online its hard on me cause I don't understand the questions half the time.I don't want to ask Sarah to help me cause she usually has her hands full with Elah.
We paid quite a bit for me to take these classes, and I am afraid all that money is gonna go to waste. That's a LOT of pressure on me. AND I found out that even if I pass this coarse I have to pay 350 bucks to take the test that determines if I get my certification or not. So that has me worried that all that money will go to waste as well.
2. I love being the soul provider for my family, and I love the fact that Sarah wants to home school Elah and our other future children because I know what I went through in school with people picking on me, and I don't want to give anyone the chance to do that to Elah, also if we home school her it could be in a Christ centered environment unlike it is in public schools. BUT, being the one provider puts more stress, and worry on me. Just knowing that if i mess up one time by calling into work cause I'm sick or having my hours cut for some reason, could possible keep us from paying our bills. Unlike having two people working if one misses work, its still ok, cause your have another income coming in. Don't get me wrong we are fine paying bills with me just working my main job. But because I worry so much I ended up getting a second job.
I know that I should give God all my worries and everything, but that's a lot easier said than done. I know that having all this on my mind and all the stress is not good for me, but I don't what could make it better.
I'm at my whits end.....
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
Tuesday, May 24, 2011
Wow, What A Month
So there's a lot of stuff going on in my life right now, and its good stuff so don't worry. Elah will be five months old this coming Saturday and I am still trying to believe it. I know I say this in just about every post I make about her turning another month old, but I'm gonna say it again. It still feels like we just brought her home from the hospital. And when I think that in just a little over a month she will be half a year old, I'm like wow! Where has the time gone?
She is doing so much now. When you hold her she likes to touch your face, and rub your cheeks. But on the negative side of that she likes to grab my Dad, Brother, and my goatee, and trust me, when she gets ahold of it, it REALLY HURTS. But you can't help but laugh at her.
I also started my new work schedule, and I love it. I love being able to spend more time at home with Sarah and Elah. And I also started my second job which is pretty easy.
Every year when it starts to get warm, I like to start walking and hiking. So here lately me and Sarah have been walking around town, and in Montreat. I haven't hiked up to look out this year yet, but I sure am looking forward to it. I would love to start long distance walking and I have been thinking about starting a new blog to put my walks and hikes in. Now whether or not I will keep up with it, I don't know.
That's really about all that's going on right now, and I gotta say, life is good.
She is doing so much now. When you hold her she likes to touch your face, and rub your cheeks. But on the negative side of that she likes to grab my Dad, Brother, and my goatee, and trust me, when she gets ahold of it, it REALLY HURTS. But you can't help but laugh at her.
I also started my new work schedule, and I love it. I love being able to spend more time at home with Sarah and Elah. And I also started my second job which is pretty easy.
Every year when it starts to get warm, I like to start walking and hiking. So here lately me and Sarah have been walking around town, and in Montreat. I haven't hiked up to look out this year yet, but I sure am looking forward to it. I would love to start long distance walking and I have been thinking about starting a new blog to put my walks and hikes in. Now whether or not I will keep up with it, I don't know.
That's really about all that's going on right now, and I gotta say, life is good.
Saturday, May 7, 2011
Has It Really Been A Year?
Well, I meant to post this on the 2nd of this month, but I kinda got side tracked. It was a year ago on may 2nd that I found out I was gonna be a daddy. Has it really been a year already? Its hard to believe isn't it?
As I look back to the day Sarah told me she was pregnant I can't seem to remember why I was so worried. Over the last four months I have had people ask me," Is it what you thought it would be?" And yes it has been everything I thought it would be and more. It has been one heck of an adventure, and its only beginning. The past year has been pretty crazy. I remember all the dr. visits, the baby shower, getting the nursery ready, the stupid child birth classes and the crazy perky lady, and then the grand fanally being the birth of my little girl.
Sunday, May 1, 2011
Stressed But Blessed
Here lately I have been kinda stressed out. I still getting used to the changes at work though they are nothing major, I'm starting a second job for the summer though I AM NOT killing myself like I did last summer, my CDM class is kicking my butt, and I'm trying to help Sarah with Elah as much as I can. On a brighter note, Elah is now four months old, no I'm not kidding. She is growing up so fast. She is starting to grab things now, and she loves to cuddle with her favorite stuffed animal Penny the pinguin.
I may be stressed, but I am blessed more than I deserve to be. I mean I have a great wife, a beautiful baby girl, a good job, a roof over my head, and food in the fridge. I AM BLESSED!
Friday, April 15, 2011
Wow......
Wow, where to begin....
Well, its been almost two months since my last post. Where has the time gone?
There is some much to tell you guys about, I don't know where to begin.
Lets start with Elahs echocardiagram appointment. I can't remember if I told you guys about this, so I'll just start from the beginning.
We took Elah to the doctor one afternoon cause she was coming down with a cold, and we wanted to see if there was anything we could do to help clear the congestion in her nose.
When the doctor listened to her heart beat, she heard a slight heart murmur. She told us it sounded innocent to her but would rather have it checked out just to make sure, so we scheduled and echo cardiogram for her.
We decided it was best if we not tell our parents, (especially my parents, sorry Momma) about it until we found out for sure what was going on. We didn't want them to worry.
She had the appointment, and Elah did really well. and they told us they would call when the results came in.
Well we waited, and waited, and waited some more. We figured everything came back good since they never called us.
The on Sarahs birthday they called us and said they found something on the test. I hope I say this right but they said she had an atrial septum defect, which is a hole between the two valves of her heart.
She still said that it looked innocent, and that she was just gonna have the cardiologist talk to us just to reassure us.
We had been planning a vacation the first week in April and we were gonna leave on the 31st of March. Well they called us and the only time they could see us was the 31st. So we went back over there before we left for vacation and they did a few more test on her and then we talked to the cardiologist. He told us everything looked good, and that he thinks it will just close on its own. Whew, what a sigh of relief. We have to take her back when she turns two just to check up on it.
Now the vacation. We went to Pigeon Forge Tennessee for a week with some close friends of ours, the Flints. We rented a cabin up in the mountains, and it was amazing.
The only bad thing about it was a spiral staircase that led to the game room, and Nathan and Janelles room.
We went to Chattanooga, Gatlinburg, The Aquarium Of The Smokies, The Titanic Museum, and a bunch of other things. Now we are back home and things are starting to get back to normal. We're trying to get Elah back into her routine which is going ok. lol.
Elah is starting to laugh now, and its the most adorable thing ever. Shes also starting to teethe so that kinda sucks.
Shes growing up so fast, its hard to take it all in. She is almost four months old now, can you believe that? It doesn't seem like that long ago I started this blog, and that was when I found out Sarah was Pregnant.
Well, its been almost two months since my last post. Where has the time gone?
There is some much to tell you guys about, I don't know where to begin.
Lets start with Elahs echocardiagram appointment. I can't remember if I told you guys about this, so I'll just start from the beginning.
We took Elah to the doctor one afternoon cause she was coming down with a cold, and we wanted to see if there was anything we could do to help clear the congestion in her nose.
When the doctor listened to her heart beat, she heard a slight heart murmur. She told us it sounded innocent to her but would rather have it checked out just to make sure, so we scheduled and echo cardiogram for her.
We decided it was best if we not tell our parents, (especially my parents, sorry Momma) about it until we found out for sure what was going on. We didn't want them to worry.
She had the appointment, and Elah did really well. and they told us they would call when the results came in.
Well we waited, and waited, and waited some more. We figured everything came back good since they never called us.
The on Sarahs birthday they called us and said they found something on the test. I hope I say this right but they said she had an atrial septum defect, which is a hole between the two valves of her heart.
She still said that it looked innocent, and that she was just gonna have the cardiologist talk to us just to reassure us.
We had been planning a vacation the first week in April and we were gonna leave on the 31st of March. Well they called us and the only time they could see us was the 31st. So we went back over there before we left for vacation and they did a few more test on her and then we talked to the cardiologist. He told us everything looked good, and that he thinks it will just close on its own. Whew, what a sigh of relief. We have to take her back when she turns two just to check up on it.
Now the vacation. We went to Pigeon Forge Tennessee for a week with some close friends of ours, the Flints. We rented a cabin up in the mountains, and it was amazing.
The only bad thing about it was a spiral staircase that led to the game room, and Nathan and Janelles room.
We went to Chattanooga, Gatlinburg, The Aquarium Of The Smokies, The Titanic Museum, and a bunch of other things. Now we are back home and things are starting to get back to normal. We're trying to get Elah back into her routine which is going ok. lol.
Elah is starting to laugh now, and its the most adorable thing ever. Shes also starting to teethe so that kinda sucks.
Shes growing up so fast, its hard to take it all in. She is almost four months old now, can you believe that? It doesn't seem like that long ago I started this blog, and that was when I found out Sarah was Pregnant.
Monday, February 28, 2011
Two Months Old!
Wow, my little girl is two months old today!
Its so hard to believe cause it still feels like we just brought her home. She is doing so well.
She is almost able to hold her head up by herself, shes trying her best to roll over, she smiles constantly, and she coos up a storm.
Today sadly was her two month check up. Everything is great, she is over ten pounds now, and is healthy as can be. Then came the bad part.
She had to get her vaccinations today. She got one by mouth and three by injection.
I had been dreading that this whole month. I just can't stand to see her in pain.
The nurse came in and started to give her the shots and, I know she was only doing her job, but I wanted to smack her in the back of her head for hurting my little girl.
Elah made it through like a champ though, and we went home. Her little legs have been sore just about all day, and it just breaks my heart hearing her "hurting" cry.
We have been giving her infant Tylenol to help with the soreness and it seems to be helping.
Sorry I haven't been posting as often as I used to, but as you can imagine I've been a little busy with work, helping take care of Elah, keeping the house clean, and I just started my CDM classes. So I don't have a lot of time for anything.
I'm not sure when my next post will be, but I am still gonna be blogging, even if its once a month.
Its so hard to believe cause it still feels like we just brought her home. She is doing so well.
She is almost able to hold her head up by herself, shes trying her best to roll over, she smiles constantly, and she coos up a storm.
Today sadly was her two month check up. Everything is great, she is over ten pounds now, and is healthy as can be. Then came the bad part.
She had to get her vaccinations today. She got one by mouth and three by injection.
I had been dreading that this whole month. I just can't stand to see her in pain.
The nurse came in and started to give her the shots and, I know she was only doing her job, but I wanted to smack her in the back of her head for hurting my little girl.
Elah made it through like a champ though, and we went home. Her little legs have been sore just about all day, and it just breaks my heart hearing her "hurting" cry.
We have been giving her infant Tylenol to help with the soreness and it seems to be helping.
Sorry I haven't been posting as often as I used to, but as you can imagine I've been a little busy with work, helping take care of Elah, keeping the house clean, and I just started my CDM classes. So I don't have a lot of time for anything.
I'm not sure when my next post will be, but I am still gonna be blogging, even if its once a month.
Friday, February 11, 2011
Not My Normal Blog Post.
So i'm gonna fuss a gripe in this post because i can.
First off I am completely run down. Im so exhausted that i feel miserable and i end up being a dick to everyone. The days i work sarah lets me sleep all night, but i never get any rest. When i wake up i feel as bad and as tired as i did when i went to bed. From 4:30am to 9pm i am constantly going. i work all morning then i go home and end up cleaning cause im a clean freak. Or go to asheville all afternoon running errands.
On top of all that i did something to my knee and now it aches all the time. And i just found out that new management is taking over at work, so im worried about them coming in and changing everything.
All i want is some time to just relax is that so much to ask for?
First off I am completely run down. Im so exhausted that i feel miserable and i end up being a dick to everyone. The days i work sarah lets me sleep all night, but i never get any rest. When i wake up i feel as bad and as tired as i did when i went to bed. From 4:30am to 9pm i am constantly going. i work all morning then i go home and end up cleaning cause im a clean freak. Or go to asheville all afternoon running errands.
On top of all that i did something to my knee and now it aches all the time. And i just found out that new management is taking over at work, so im worried about them coming in and changing everything.
All i want is some time to just relax is that so much to ask for?
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