Bible Verse

Matthew 18:5- And Jesus called a little child to Him, set him in the midst of them, and said, "Assuredly, I say to you, unless you are converted and become as little children, you will by no means enter the kingdom of heaven. Therefore whoever humbles himself as this little child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven. And whoever receives one little child like this in My name receives Me. But whoever causes one of these little ones who believe in Me to sin, it would be better for him if a millstone were hung around his neck, and he were drowned in the depth of the sea."

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Anticipation

Since Sarah can go into labor anytime now, the anticipation is absolutely killing me.
I find myself now, especially when I'm trying to get to sleep and during tray line at work, just zoning out just trying to imagine what the day will be like when she enters this world.
I'm so in love with this little girl that isn't even here yet.
I told Sarah the other day that she would have to move over cause I had another girl in my life. shes like "Thanks a lot."
Anyways, I keep thinking about that moment after she is born, when its just Me, Sarah, and Elah in the room by ourselves, and how special that time will be.
And then I think about when all the family comes in to see her. No offense to all of y'all but I'm kinda dreading all the visitors cause I know we will have family members coming out of the woodwork, and I really don't want to deal with it.
I think about how nervous I will be once we get home and she starts crying or how I will do changing her diapers. I'll probably be to afraid to do anything with her right off the bat cause I'll be afraid that I'll hurt her.
I'm just ready for her to get here and we have her home so we can begin our new life as a family.

Ready To Go.

The bags are packed, Sarah is 37wks and 2 days pregnant, So we are ready to go!
Sarah could go into labor anytime now. I just hope its not this week, cause its supposed to snow all week.

The Worst Nightmare Ever!

Last night while I was asleep, I remember having the most terrifying nightmare I have ever had in my life.
I dreamed that Sarah had gone into labor and during the time we were at the hospital Elah was born Stillborn.
I can't even begin to describe the sadness I felt, and then I finally woke up, almost crying and then I realized it was just a dream. Thank God!
I never want to have a dream like that again.

Baby Shower #2

Today the place where I work had a baby shower for me and Sarah. We had a good time with everyone, and ate a lot of good food.
I am truly blessed to work somewhere that I enjoy working at, and to have the privilege to work with some really great people. I never expected them to go to such lengths just for me, and it really meant a lot to me.
We got a lot of nice stuff, a lot of cute little outfits, and we got these two really cool bookends that look like teddy bears. I think someone made them, though I'm not sure.
They also got us a really pretty cake.
I wish I could have taken a picture of everyone to post on here, but since they were on duty they had to keep rotating so someone would be out on the halls to look after the residents. For those of you who don't know, I work at a nursing home.
For everyone who helped put this shower together, thank you so much. You have no idea how much it meant to both Sarah, and me.

The two Bookends

The cake they got for us.

Sarahs Dr. Update, And Hospital Tour

Lets start off with Sarah's Doctor visit today.
It took a little longer than usual today cause they had to do the baby stress test thing. I didn't go back for that, but afterwards Sarah told me that little miss Elah didn't stop moving the whole time.
The nurse had her lay down on her back and told her to let her know when she felt Elah move.
Sarah told the lady that she wouldn't feel her on her back and the nurse asked why. Then Sarah told her about only being able to feel her when she is laying on her side. So the nurse recorded her doing both.
First she had Sarah lay on her back for a while, and guess what....... she didn't feel a thing, but the nurse recorded Elah moving a lot. So the nurse asked her to turn on her side and sure enough, Sarah felt every bit of it. After they took her back to a room, the nurse came and got me.
This check up was pretty much the same as every other, only they did a few test on her, I forget what they called them. And they checked to see if she was dilated yet.
She is one centimeter dilated. I thought it was cool cause the Midwife said she could put a finger in her cervix and could even feel Elahs head!
The visit was really good, Elah is really healthy, Sarah is really healthy, and everything is ready to go pretty much. After this Saturday, it will only be a matter of time before she goes into labor.
I guess when God says its time, it will be time..
Sarah now has to go every week to her apointments, well, twice a week, one for her check up, and stess test, then again later in the week for a follow up stress test.

Okay, now, the hospital tour.
After we left the doctors office, we had an hour to kill so went to Target for a while and found Elah a pair of red pants for her Christmas outfit if she is born before Christmas, and we picked up a few essentials. Then we headed over to the hospital. They told us to be there AT 5:20 so of course we were early, so we sit inside for a while. It was absolutely freezing, cause every time someone walked through the doors the cold wind would blow in.
5:20 came around and no tour guide..... 5:30 came, and still no tour guide...... Finally about 5:40 or so, she showed up. And can you guess who it was?????
THE CRAZY PERKY LADY from the childbirth class AHHHHHHHHHHH!
And of course Sarah starts laughing.

Anyways she took us to the labor and delivery floor first, and showed us one of the rooms we will be in..
As she was telling us about everything that went on, the realization of this whole situation really hit me. I'm like,"Wow, this is actually happening, I'm actually gonna be a Daddy in just a few short weeks." At that point a wave of fear washed over me, then a HUGE wave of excitement hit me and washed away the fear. She then showed us the, I guess its the recovery floor. She showed us one of the rooms there also, and boy I'm not looking forward to sleeping on that wimpy couch thing.
That was our day, and it just made me more anxious and excited than I already am.
I can't wait to meet my little Elah.

I Need A Happy Pill.....

We are dwindling down the last weeks of Sarah's pregnancy, and I have to say its probably been the longest weeks of the entire nine months.
I'm beginning to find myself a little more on edge now. Every little thing now is making me jump. Now I know how my Dad was feeling when my Mom was pregnant with me.
The other day Sarah called me while I was at work cause she wanted me to take her to her parents house on my lunch break. Of course I didn't know that cause I can't answer my phone at work. The first time she called, it was kinda early in the morning before the time she usually wakes up, so that kinda put me on edge, and I started thinking," What if shes gone into labor". I kept thinking that I sure hope shes not cause Elah would be premature. Then my phone started vibrating again, then my nerves really went all to pieces.
I went on my break and called her back and asked her if everything was ok and she said" Yea I'm fine, I just want to go to Moms for a while"............. Whew! what a relief.
I came home and picked her up, and on our way to her parents I told her," If you want anything besides telling me your in labor, text me next time, cause it felt like my heart jumped into my throat when you called".
And now every time she says she has a stomach ache or any kind of cramp what so ever, I jump!
She is 36 weeks today, one more week and she will be considered full term. So I could very well meet my daughter within the next few weeks, which is exciting and absolutely terrifying at the same time.